Beautiful Mess

It's hard to believe this was only one month ago...

...and now we have blooms and green grass.

It's also hard to believe it's been 2 months since I posted here...or visited all my dear blogger friends. For that I am truly sorry.

 I miss you all.

Life has just been one Beautiful Mess as of late.

Because yes....a mess can be a beautiful thing.

If you look at it from the right angle.

Right Benny-boy?

:D

tonight's sunset

It's the second day of  Spring- 

and we received more snow in the last 20 hours than what has fallen 

over the last few months combined.

The day has been white....no distinction between landscape and horizon lines....snow falling and landing and building up around everything.

Yet for some reason, the sun chose to shine right before it set.

And I caught it.

Driving home from Hockey Awards Night, I stopped (precariously on icy/snow roads), and 

snapped this up.

Quick.

Now I have sunshine to take me into the 3rd day of spring...even if it's white again tomorrow.

Hope lies under it all somewhere.

To hope is to risk pain.
To try is to risk failure.
To give is to risk being turned away.

And yet,  one could say that the greatest tragedy in life~ is to risk nothing.

He Shoots....

Only 3 teams are left in League Playoffs in this tier.

We are one of them.

This game determines if we place 3rd, or go on to fight for 1st.

It's the last period....1:19 minutes left to be exact.

Our team is given a penalty for holding.

We're down to 4 players...and the opposing team decides to pull their goalie.

Now it's 6 on 4.

After the last hour and a half of  hard playing, all players are exhausted.

Now it comes down to 6 against 4 with just over 1 minute of play.

And both sides fight hard.

Forward to 1.6 seconds remaining!

....

Our defenseman winds up and shoots the puck from the farthest end of the rink.... to the other.

It slides by the other 3 players on his team.

It also slides by all 6 others on the opposing team. 

And with a few inches away from the edge of the net...it slides....... in!

Score!

The buzzer sounds. 

I don't know as I have ever jumped that high off a seat before.

That had to have marked the most exciting game and moment of play in my 

"mother-watching-hockey career"

 thus far.

So proud of you Ben.

That was one awesome shot!

~~~~~~~~~~

And then...it hit me.

I would have been that proud of him had he made that goal....

Or not.

It didn't matter.

My love for him isn't based on what he can do or what he's done.

It's just love.

Unconditional.

Regardless.

I love my kiddos no matter what they do, don't do, can, or cannot do.

It made me wonder.....

what would our world would be like if we all had that kind of love~~ 

regardless of conditions?

~Happy weekend everyone!~

Curiosity~

“The important thing is not to stop questioning. 

Curiosity has its own reason for existing.

One cannot help but be in awe when he contemplates the mysteries of eternity, of life, of the marvelous structure of reality. It is enough if one tries merely to comprehend a little of this mystery every day.

Never lose a holy curiosity."

~Albert Einstein

~~~~~

Think I'm going to teach my kiddos to be curious this week.

The weather is looking warmer~or I am willing it to be so~ and Outdoor Things are on the agenda...

Have a wonderful Monday!

~Be curious.~

A Racing Schedule

Whoever had the idea to sign up for 2 marathons, 2 century rides, and an Ironman distance triathlon within 7 months of each other... was not thinking properly.

Add to the training....

 4 kiddos, homeschooling, hockey, lacrosse, rugby, track and field practices to run to and from...

was I insane to think I could do this?

Training for an Ironman alone requires hours of scheduled time on the bike, run, and in the pool.

Raising kiddos requires 24 hours of patience and planning and did I mention patience?

I feel like I'm juggling it all and then trying to get enough sleep to do it all...sanely.

And it's only week 3 into training.

There are still 23 weeks left.

And yet...I wouldn't give up a minute of anything.

My days are full and I wake up each day knowing I'm working towards 

goals which I set out for myself a long time ago. 

And it's a good thing.

I'm starting to think a full and racing schedule suits my personality ....and I'm already wondering what lies beyond it all. Life is so short to be anything but filling it with what you love and were made to do.

The trick is finding what you love.

And then finding balance.

And then, 

just living it!

What is it YOU love to do?

~~

Quoted Today

There is only one way to avoid criticism:
Do nothing,
Say nothing,
and Be nothing."
~Aristotle

My Window~

When I see morning appear at my kitchen window, 

the sight always makes me realize that each new day 

brings on a second chance.

Happy Monday.

Bridge Month

I see March as

a month which bridges our winter to spring.

It's not a glorious month....there still is snow on the ground.

Not pretty... as no flowers dare appear for fear of  the certain snowstorms we have yet to endure.

Days can be grey and the horizon line meshes with the sky for one never-ending landscape of white.

And yet....

March does not scare me.

It's the bridge needed to tolerate and tackle to get us to the Spring of things.

I can already feel it coming.

I open my windows now and again just to dare March to linger longer then it has to.

I listen for and can hear the sweet chirps of brave birds.

I can feel the world around me ready to breathe again....

and March to me becomes,

the most pleasant of all months.

~Happy new month~

~Just a beginning~

Simple Moments~

A full week, but one which was full of simple smiling moments...


Hearing laughter echoing  up the stairs while kiddos and their cousins played a game during a visit.

             A first cup of hot coffee right after a cold run in the early morning.

                      Shopping with Molly-girl and buying shoes together.

Sipping wine with a good friend.

                                   My dog smiling up at me when I drive into the driveway.

No bills in the mailbox for 3 days straight.

                      A 2000 piece puzzle nearing completion.

             Coming out of the car wash with a clean car...if only for a few miles;)

Ben telling me excitedly about his 2 goals made during a hockey game and that he received an award for most Most Valuable Player.

                                                       Getting a text from my 18 year old telling me he loves me.

Emptying the laundry basket and having it stay empty....if only for a few hours;)

         Signing up for another marathon and 

having Corben high~fiving me that I did so.

Crawling into a bed with clean sheets and falling asleep 
within seconds after a very long day.

~~~~~~~~

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Simple moments that made this week full and precious.

Make sure to bank every single sweet moment. 

~Priceless investments~

Have a wonderful new week ahead, friends.

Tell me....

Tell me, what is it you plan to do

With your one wild and precious life?

~Mary Oliver

"The Summer Day"

~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I feel restless.

A type of restless one feels before something big is about to happen.....

Similar to the feeling I get before a big race...a nervousness that I do not want this to happen...yet this is the one thing I've been working up to for days and weeks and months. 

And years.

And no matter how nervous I am...I wouldn't turn around and walk away from it for the world.

Maybe there's a restlessness because spring is coming and I can feel it in how the daylight lingers longer around the supper hour.....

or the snow seems different on a run. {Some days there is actually a mud puddle to run through!}

Or maybe?

 It's that I am finally seeing a light to all the things I have been trying to muddle through for so very long.

It's not all understood yet...but I can actually see beyond the curve in the trail.

I am thrilled.

Ecstatic over the fact that I no longer feel the need to turn back.

The tree-lined trail doesn't scare me anymore.

Neither do the bends in the road...the unseen corners.

This wild and crazy life we live is just that.

Wild and crazy.

Some live it beyond the wild...I feel I often live it by crazy.

Life can be wild, crazy, precious....

a learning ground.

I finally realize it as such.

And I will take the restless...

as I know it's leading me to where I need to be.

Finally.

Live today.

It's part of your one wild and precious life.

Mountain Exploration~

I am learning that Exploring the Mountain is better than letting it Overtake me.

~Have a wonderful weekend everyone!~

At the end of the day....

~Follow your heart regardless of others opinions.

At the end of the day it's you who has to live with what you 

decide.~

Have a wonderful weekend everyone!

For Leontien

For Leontien.

You were the miracle.

For all of us.

Heaven is brighter now.

Investments

 The most important investment you can make, means using your 

time.

Your creativity.

Your ears and eyes.

And most importantly...

your heart.

Investing in Someone.

 It will never be short in returns.

~~~~~~~

(taken from Ben and Me...Summer 2012)

Tuesday~

Just another Typical Tuesday.

Unless of course you know where to look.....

Keep your eyes open for the 

Little Things

 that turn typical into 

Out-of-the-Ordinary.

~~~~~

And while you're doing that...here's a

Giveaway!

to check out.

Smack into Monday

Monday. 

A day which appears out of no where~and  after a full weekend~

 seems a bit more mundane.

Not everyone welcomes it.

I am no exception. 

Except that today~ it's different.

I ran smack into Monday this morning.

Molly and I have decided to start running together again.

This morning was run morning.

6am and it's dark. 

And cold. 

Instead of head lamps we used the Sliver of a Moon.

And about a million stars to light our country road of running.

Our polar bear of a dog clumsily runs around us, banging into our legs as we try to find our pace.

It's clear. 

And beautiful.

And did I mention cold?

Shadows fall on the road.

It's hard to tell what is real- and what is just shadow.

For a  moment my heart skips as I think I see a moose crossing the road up ahead.

Then I realize it's the dark laying shadow of uncovered gravel.

There is no sound. 

Except for the crunch of our shoes on the hard packed snow- 

and our breathing as we try to keep up with our legs.

And I guess there is also the occasional comment from one of us on the 

beauty of this perfect morning.

(Did I mention there was about a billion stars overhead?)

Then...

on the way back towards home...

as we begin to slow down because Monday is just about to begin, 

(or is it because our legs feel a tad bit tired?)...

a Star falls straight down in front of me.

One of the trillion that are shining above us.

I swear it lands at my feet.

And it is then I realized I just ran 

smack into Monday.

And I don't even care.

~Have a wonderful day.

It is Monday, after all.~

Step Forward

Life Upside Down

When we turn the self-focused

ME

into

WE

We gain greater perspective of the big picture and what it's all about.

~Living Life Upside Down~

2013

thought in quote

"I find it almost comical to the degree which people leave you alone when you're already there. Whether it's because you don't do what they think you should, or because they don't know what to say...you are lonelier then ever because of it. 

And so...you stand alone, and hope that the left alone part will turn you into someone stronger."

~author unknown

No Limits~

Happy New Year

~2013~

It's a new year.

Make the Sky your Limit.

~~~