Inevitable Change

Change.

It's inevitable.

Sometimes it's good and leaves us with positive emotions...

other times we wish things wouldn't have had to change just yet...

{all the while knowing deep down it needs to occur}

And usually does sooner than later.

Yesterday I held a Graduation for my oldest...who begins his first term of Millwright in 2 weeks.

Mixed emotions...and with the way my mind works...{in overdrive for the most part}....I can't help but replay every single moment- good and bad- throughout the years of his life.

Homeschooling hasn't been an easy route.

Truth is...it's difficult being mom and teacher to your kiddos....and neither one of us has much freedom of escape from the other in the tricky times.

It was a lot of work, a lot of tears on both sides...and yet- I wouldn't trade a minute of the time I got to learn with him.

Not one.

I guess that's why I find this so hard.

He's my firstborn. My guinea pig.

He and I have had to carve our way through all this stuff before the others...and we didn't always do it gracefully.

But we did it the best we knew how...and now on the other side of it all...I can truly say the years I've had getting to be his teacher and his learning buddy....has been an incredible blessing.

Tricky letting go of it all.

Especially as I feel I've lost part of my job as a teacher;)

Now I get to figure out what to spend extra time on....

and watch while he continues on with his own story.

A inevitable change.

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The following is a short video that I played at his Graduation last night.

(Many thanks to my nephew for putting it together for me!)

Now.... go take on the world!