Just~One~Life: mind over matter

Monday, March 5, 2012

Hypothermic Half ~

Yesterday I ran the Hypothermic Half marathon.
The name sounds worse than the run.
It was a beautiful, snowy day...perfect temperature for running (-5C) and no wind.
(Remember last year's first 13.1mile run? My First Half)
Well this one wasn't so analyzed or lamented over.
I just showed up and ran... for the most part.

My 4 kiddos drove in and waited for me at the Finish Line:

And I got a real pretty medal:
(As did everyone who crossed the finish line;)

Goal time wasn't met...but I'm letting myself off due to the snow covered trail route...where it seems everyone had trouble getting their footing.
Really;)

And remember when I said I thought people were insane to run 42km?
Well my first 42k is scheduled for May.
Second one is August.

Kind of funny how time changes your mind on a matter isn't it?

Friday, August 20, 2010

Fighting Panic

So I do not like feeling closed in.
I have been claustrophobic for as long as I can remember.

I adore my wide open skies and places, the colors of this crazy old world and feeling free.

At 3:30am I awoke with such terror....as I looked out my window to nothing. No stars, no clouds.
Just smoky haziness.
I have been up since then trying to fight waves of this panic feeling.
Going from ideas from hopping in my car and driving until there is blue sky above me-
to booking a flight anywhere! just to rise up out of this smothering smoke.

I went swimming to try to clear my head and lungs, hoping the "blue water" would alleviate the attack of panic continually rising in my head. It worked...until someone there asked..."Is it me or is there a haze of smoke above the water?"....

Mind over matter.

Trying to drive home from the pool (which is 20minutes from my home)...looked like this:

They say this heavy smoke will last a couple more days.

I think I can make it through...but my mind will be somewhere else.

And aside from curling up under my blankets trying to calm my panicky heart...I will dwell on the happy, good, color, and sweetness of the life I once knew just a couple days ago....

(yes i sound dramatic...but this is my panic area.

Claustrophobia is my mind-downfall....)

Happy thoughts to start....